Being Married

I cant seem to write about anything today, or for the past month. 

i feel like I have so much to say but I can't seem to put it into writing.

So i'm going to put things that I like about being married:

1. the companionship, feels good to have someone to love and someone loving you

2. Cooking :)

3. Having my own home/apt

4. Being able to be with the person I love

  Sometimes I feel this profound love for my husband, it feels amazing like i cannot breath. It feels good to be able to hug and cuddle with the person you love.

5. the listening, my husband listens to me like no other person it's amazing!!

anyways i should really go...

God Bless

All women cry for no reason

Sometimes like tonight I cannot fall asleep. Or I refuse to, it seems to me that no matter how much I LOVE to sleep, it's wasting time.

Sometimes like tonight, my body is so tired, eyes fighting to stay open and I still refuse to fall asleep.
What troubles me more is my husband asleep. I sometimes wish that he would stay awake with me, then I don't. If he's able to fall asleep peacefully, I thank God.

After I say my prayers, I lay on my bed and wonder about everything in my life. I doze in and out and when I'm awake I wonder why.

"All women cry for no reason"

I heard that back in middle school in a class discussion and I denied it furiously.
Sometimes I wonder if we do cry for no reason...

No. There is always a reason.

Sometimes I cry because at night there is so many things going on in my mind that I can't fall asleep.
Or,
Because I miss my family
I feel sad
I feel angry
I feel happy
Someone hurt my feelings
There is always a reason.

Do you feel like women cry for no reason? Think about it, the desperate times you feel like crying.
After I cry, small silent tears, or heart wrenching sobs, at the end there is relief, I feel like I can think better, I feel like God has given me strength. I know it may sound foolish, but that's how I feel.

At the end of the day, when I'm finally able to drift off I feel tremendously grateful.


I know I completely combined two different subjects, but it is 2:15am. I have an excuse. Good night
oh and I failed my goal... oops

Cleanliness

A few days ago a few of my friends came to visit me. It was really late at night almost 12:00 and they were passing through the city.
My sofa was piled up with laundry I had recently washed and the sink filled with dirty dishes, I had decided to leave them until the morning. It was embarrassing trying to hurriedly clean up while they waited. OUTside. Yes, in my foolishness I left them outside waiting. I was ashamed but now that its over, has that ever happened to you??
Do you clean your house constantly?
If you do, well lucky you. Unfortunately, I don't, (i am ashamed really)
I talk to other girls, and they are always talking about cleaning, not all of them cook for their husbands but they do have a clean house.
I'm not saying I live in filth but I do get lazy once in a while and leave the dishes in the sink and other little stuff.
I work part-time and that's my excuse, yet in my head I refuse to validate it and just call myself lazy.
So what I am going to do is try to keep the house clean at least without dishes in the sink!

what's that quote I'm always reading about?
Cleanliness is next to Godliness. or something like that.

On another note:
I can't believe that January is almost over, where I live the sun is already shining and you don't need a jacket to go outside. Cannot wait for February! Valentine's Day!!!

hope you have a blessed week!!

Cancer...

I just heard today about Jessica Joy Rees.
It hurts my heart that she died. I didn't know her at all. But she literary changed the world in a way that most of us will never do. May God Bless her.

It's scary.

You don't know how to protect yourself, it sneaks up on you.

You cannot protect those who you love.

Have you ever since someone die of cancer?

I have and them giving up hope is the fastest way for them to die. I had a 16 year old friend who died, i visited him almost every day, and I saw how he changed.

At the end he was not the boy i grew up with.

It's scary.

May God Protect us all

Big FAT...

I haven't written in a while, because I've been getting lazy because of the holiday's.

So what's been on my mind is that I haven't felt healthy this whole month actually. It's little things that irk me and are turning me completely crazy.

I feel like google is laughing at me. I'm one of those people that google every symptom they have.
Anyways, we've been ttc for a few months now but it hasn't happened yet. But every symptom that I google seems to deal with pregnancy lately, which is driving me insane!!!
Well only God knows when! Time will tell.

It saddens me alot to not be pregnant. So this whole month I've been depressed and technically sad.
My hubby has been supportive of it all.
I'm happy that he is understanding.

Bye-bye
If you can spare a prayer please do.

Annoying Him...

Yesterday, my husband and I got together with his parents and his sister's family.
His sister's husband was going to make his special lasagna and he wanted to demonstrate us how to cook it.
I watched as his wife kept interfering the whole time, and I also watched as he was starting to get annoyed. She kept correcting him and he kept doing what he was doing.
I was puzzled by this, because when I interfere my husband with something he is doing he dislikes it, so I try not to do it.
Yet this woman kept doing it, until her mother told her to leave him alone.
Then she said, "He doesn't care, he doesn't mind when I do it, he still loves me" then she looked at him to affirm it. He said "sure", then seeing that she got hurt, his face softened and said, "of course I do, my sweet little love". It was then that I understood that that was her way of annoying him.

Do you annoy your husband sometimes?

Annoying my husband makes me feel full of giddy happiness. I know that he absolutely loves me no matter how silly I am. I can be who I really am when I'm with him.

I can kiss or tickle him to death even if it bothers him, I can call him silly little nicknames that he hates, and I can spend the whole night explaining a book I just read without caring if I'm annoying him.

Do you feel the same way with your husband?? If you do, then you might as well agree with this quote:

I love being married. It's so great to find that one special person you want to annoy for the rest of your life. - Rita Rudner


 HFFU8YE9WMYS

A glass of water

Love is the thing that enables a woman to sing while she mops up the floor after her husband has walked across it in his barn boots.  ~Hoosier Farmer

When my husband gets home and I hear him moving around the cabinets, my head immediately feels hot. Ever time that my husband gets thirsty he gets a new clean glass out of the cabinet. In about four hours, the apartment is filled with glasses half full of water. I constantly remind him to use the same one but he "forgets", and I can't help but feel desperate of picking up after him. 

What do you do in order for your man to change his ways? 

Is it even possible for him to change?

I have received various advice from friends.

One told me that I should buy disposable cups and eventually he will realize that every time he gets a new cup he is wasting his money.

Another told me to speak to him make him understand that its not fair that he uses so many glasses in one day.

Yet if I take the quote in consideration, its telling me to overlook the situation. That love should make me wash those glasses without complain. It puts me to think, how many things does my husband overlook of me? Things that annoy him and bother him? Yet, he loves me so he "sings, while mopping the dirty floor I'VE stepped on".

What would you do?